I’m not steady or rock steady.
I want to be steady like the balance scale.
If I only I knew the chemistry and the formula to keep steady.
unfortunately my mind has a switch of it’s own.
I manage to hold the switch steady as much as I can.
There’s a force that comes and pull the gear in a different direction without notice.
That force is call mania the unsteadiness come and go around in different stages, high and low.
It doesn’t stop there. Some stages are unexplainable.
All seems normal to me and not you because they are part of me.
Which one do I like the best! I don’t know.
It depends on the day. It depends on the moment.
It depends on a day that steady or unsteady.
Is it a day of high of mania where I feel invincible?
an overachiever and my confidence is over the sky..?
I have the ideas I have the desires.
Only if I can tilt my head to the right balance to hold it steady. Steady to balance the chemicals perfectly the art of of balance is unknown to me.